the inevitable blog..

yes on relationships.

..and the familiar question comes into play. do we ever really get over our ex's? like jay said although we'd like to purge these people from our lives, we can never do so because they are always going to be there. in our hearts ..in our stories .. our pains.. in our relationships. so then if thats the case, that we never really are over ex's then what does "moving on" entail? is it just being at peace with what it was and accepting wassup then moving forward? is it not caring? not loving? understanding? then what of friendship? what do you do when you miss that person? what if you miss that person after 3,4,5 years after ..does that mean you're not over that person? are you even ever supposed to be? i like to say that i am waiting to be "ready" to be in a commited relationship ..but what is "ready"? do i need to redefine that?

well, that made my head ache just a little bit more. wonderful. bottom line is that i dont get why ex's still bug me. why can't i just run away..or fix it. do i just have to live with this akwardness forever as a consequence? hmm...

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on a random note..i like the new fergie cd. not too bad .. her slow stuff is dope.one of my faves is mary jane shoes until she gets all no doubtish..finally ..velvet..big girls dont cry ..fergielicious..london bridge (shet up)...yea .. hahaha.. anywho..

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not going to italy anymore .. so starting mid december i am a free woman. trying to find a job/housing outside of american canyon .. so please pray for that if yall have any time.. miss you all.. love you!


peace
God bless,
`nOwie